Below are the 16 most recent journal entries recorded in amanda91489's LiveJournal:

Sunday, August 7th, 2005
1:13 pm	I'm just gettin back! Hey ya'll...I'm just now gettin back from Midland...it was a major blast! I have had a lot of fun...but this was definitely the icing on the cake! Here's some: *When a guy looked at my dad and then looked at me...and said..."She must look like her mother!" it was funny! *The same guy from above, looking at my dad and asking him if doug was his son in-law...me and doug walked away...not saying a word *Hitting Doug in the nuts with a Beach ball! *Volleyball in the elevator,pool,stairs,bleachers *Soccer in the hallway! *Doug giving me a shirt that he won *Squirt gun fight! *Looking at hott guy's in the mall ***These are just some*** I'm tired so, I'm gonna get goin! Current Mood: I'm in sucha good mood! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 19th, 2005
12:02 pm	I'm just bitching at David for stuff that a normal/brain dead person could have done whenever they were asked to do it! But no...he has to be a fuck'n asswhole and ask me "Amanda...why are you cleaning the house?" "Becauase David...why do people clean their house? Could it be that it's dirty/needs to be picked up a little bit?" Hmm....let's think children...is David retarted...and wants to sit on his ass all day and watched Charmed? Yes...." me. "You know what amanda...what the fuck is your problem?" "Geez David...take a f'n look around you...you have no house, u work at f'n McDonalds....you don't have a car...no money...geez....I guess that your a fuck up!"me. "Well...hey...at least I have a job amanda..."david. "David...ur a 25 yr. old...male...single...white...and you have a minimum wage job...what the hell do you have to show for...a piss ant job? Hmmm........?" "Exactly...you have nuttin to show for...not a damn cent to your name...what the hell would have happened if mom and dad wouldn't have let you move back in for the 4th time since u were 22? Exactly...you'd be fucked up...and prolly living on the streets so don't push my f'n button's today!" David didn't say anything... I hope that I'm not being to rude...er...bitchy...but...all that he does is sit on his ass....all day long...while I'm cooking...cleaning...washing stuff...taking out the dog...I'm not sitting on my ass all fuck'n day...but...he is...doing jack f'n shit! Whatever....Well....that was my day so far... Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 17th, 2005
11:27 am	Hey ya'll Hey ya'll...umm...it's really raining outside. And...I'm gonna go shopping! YAY! I cannot wait. I get a new helmet for riding on the motorcycle. I'm so bored tho. I'm waiting for Doug to get here...he get's off of work in 30 minz. So...until then...I'm bored outta muh mind! Wow...I'm sitting here...wiggling my leg...listening to music. I woke up today at 5:30! Idk why...but...I did! I guess that I'm just fubar(fucked up beyond all recignition). Oh well. DON'T STEAL THAT WORD...IT'S MY WORD! Jk Jk! I'm so bored...I think that I've already said that 'bout...idk...3-4 times. Whatever I'm getting outta here! ~*~Mandy~*~ Current Mood: I'm so fucked up! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 13th, 2005
10:03 am	Pissed off! Ok. My mom and dad just got home from one of their ice cream rides. Ok? Why I'm so pissed off is, my mom's not a mom anymore, she's suppost to be their for me. I am having a rough time, and with my brother here now...I'm not used to spending all of my waking minutes of my life alone...we were suppost to spend time together today. But guess what..WE DIDN'T! I just wish that she wouldn't be so attached to her God damn computer! She's so attached to it. She just talked to her friend "Chuck" like...idk...30 mintues ago. Actually...he went on the ride. He goes to be with her. I've tried to tell/talk to her about him. I don't like him. He gives me the creeps. That's why I'm so close to my uncle Doug not only b/c he understands me better then my own parents do sumtimes(which is both very, very sad and scary!) But, b/c we both have the same opinion about him...WE SIMPLY HATE HIM!!!!!!! But anyways, getting back to my mom and her computer and "Chuck", she is already talking to him. I want to spend time with her...ALONE. We go on "Vacations" together...which now include "Chuck" and his wife Bettie. Bettie's a bitch...so...we get along just fine. And...idk..we have the same opinion's about "Chuck" and my mom. They're always talking online. It's very annoying. It's pretty sad when you can't find my mom...to just look for "Chuck" and you'll find her, and vise versa. I get very annoyed by it! Them. Her. Him. Ahhh...I've tried everything. He calls her at 10:00-10:30 every morning. I still think that they're having an affair er sumthin. Idk. I've talked to my dad about it..he's like...idk Amanda. But..whatever Just do me a favor ya'll...let me kno if I'm being to sensative about any of this! I really really am trying not to hate him. But...idk...how would any of you deal with it??? Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 9th, 2005
9:32 pm	A little Sumthin! I'm sick and tired of ppl comming up to me and asking me what the fuck is wrong with me...I'm fine...really I am! O.k. I'm not...I miss you, I need you, I lied to you when I said that I'd be o.k with out you. I thought that I could make it on my own. Move on. Get another boyfriend. The truth is...I can't move on, I need you, I want to know that your here for me whenever I need you. But your not...your gone! Current Mood: Kinda-Sorta Sad! (Comment on this)
Monday, July 4th, 2005
3:01 pm	4th of July! Hey...I'm in Fort Wayne Indiana. It's been o.k. I forgot how boring it is here. They have computer's in the hotel that we can use. That's good! I haven't heard from Geli lately...:-( I hope that she's doing o.k! Today's Uncle Doug's father's b-day! The first one since he passed away! So...I hope that he's doing o.k! This place is so huge(the hotel) But, the town isn't! I tried to talk to ppl on aim! But...it's f'n gay..and it won't let me! So..oh well! I'm gonna get going...I'll wbs! So..yeah...have fun w/o me @ home! Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 29th, 2005
12:13 am	A Astounding M Mysterious A Accurate N Normal D Devious A Adventurous J Juicy E Extreme A Awesome N New N Neglected E Enjoyable - A Awesome N Nerdy N Normal E Emotional T Trustworthy A Altruistic Y Yum L Lively O Old R Respectable Name / Username: Name Acronym Generator From Go-Quiz.com (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 23rd, 2005
8:45 pm	Check this out!!!! TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey Name: Amanda Birthday: 9-14-89 Birthplace: Detroit,MI Current Location: Washington, MI Eye Color: Hazel Hair Color: Brown Height: 5'4 Right Handed or Left Handed: Both Your Heritage: French Canadian The Shoes You Wore Today: Flip Flops Your Weakness: Your Fears: Clowns--eeek! Your Perfect Pizza: Cheese, Cheese, And more cheese! Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: More gurly! Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol Thoughts First Waking Up: FOOD! Your Best Physical Feature: Tall Your Bedtime: When ever Your Most Missed Memory: being able to get away with anything Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi MacDonalds or Burger King: MacDonalds Single or Group Dates: Single Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino Do you Smoke: I did Do you Swear: Hell yeah Do you Sing: yeah Do you Shower Daily: yeah Have you Been in Love: yeah Do you want to go to College: yeah Do you want to get Married: yeah Do you belive in yourself: yeah Do you get Motion Sickness: yeah Do you think you are Attractive: no Are you a Health Freak: no Do you get along with your Parents: sumtimes Do you like Thunderstorms: fuck no Do you play an Instrument: yeah In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yeah In the past month have you Smoked: no In the past month have you been on Drugs: no In the past month have you gone on a Date: yeah In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yeah In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: yeah In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no In the past month have you been on Stage: no In the past month have you been Dumped: yeah In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no:-/ In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no Ever been Drunk: no Ever been called a Tease: no Ever been Beaten up: no Ever Shoplifted: no How do you want to Die: Quickly--and un-painfully What do you want to be when you Grow Up: Chef What country would you most like to Visit: Scottland In a Boy/Girl.. Favourite Eye Color: Blue Favourite Hair Color: Brown/Blonde Short or Long Hair: short Height: 6'0 Weight: 200 Best Clothing Style: Comfotable Number of Drugs I have taken: none Number of CDs I own: a whole shit load! Number of Piercings: 1 Number of Tattoos: 1 Number of things in my Past I Regret: none! CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 22nd, 2005
4:51 pm	Well..... Today's been the shittiest day of my life.....Jeremy broke up w/me last night, my Uncle Doug's father passed away. My sister got fired from her Job! What the hell could go wrong next??? Idk? I'm just so...blah...I have no feeling today! I'm up-set about Jeremy & I breaking up...about my uncle's dad. I went ovr there to see him and his mom...they were such a mess!! Well...what do u expect them too be like. I expected it to be much, much worse! But...it was not as bad as I expected...but...it was pretty damn bad! My uncle Doug...just...wouldn't let go of me! He hugged my mom...and...went back to hugging me....and he wouldn't let me go! It's great to feel so damn loved! I would have expected it to be totally the other way around! But...w/e! I'm gonna get movin along hurr! I will write back! WTF is the point...it's not like anybody actually reads these things!!!!! W/e Current Mood: stressed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 21st, 2005
9:21 pm	Well...I miss Jeremy! So...writing in here...makes me think of other things besides me missing him! I went over his house again today! We had fun. We watched part of a movie...then...it was time to get me back home! I didn't want to leave, but, his mom needed to go grocery shopping...and his step-dad had to use the van! Which meant that me and Jeremy couldn't have stayed by ourselves??? I mean...come on...what's the worst thing that could happen?? They becomming grandparents er sumthin??? I doubt that! But...I'm not going thurr! Umm...I miss him so much! Damn it...I thought that writing about "our day" together would make me not think about missing him! Oh well...w/e! I guess that somethings aren't meant to be forgotten! Idk! Well...w/e! I'm gonna skadaddle! Odious! I love you Jeremy! ~*~Mandy~*~ Current Mood: I miss Jeremy! (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 18th, 2005
11:36 pm	howdy! Hey ya'll...I hung out w/Jeremy(My b/f) today! We had such a blast! We watched a movie...which we held eachother through-out the whole thing...which made me feel so loved! I'm so happy with him! Just...so happy! Ahh...we went to 2 graduation parties! Which was fun! The 2nd one was so much better though! All kinds of food...and...I'll tell u what...these ppl knew how to "Pady hardy!" I had such a blast. We weren't all over eachother b/c his parents were/are always watching us like hawks! And...so...this one lady was asking if Jeremy or myself was older...I was like...he's older then me by 18 months...she was like...oh...so...Jeremy...ur 17...and Amanda...ur 16! I was like...yeah...she's like...oh...well...that's so cute...u have a big brother...and a little sister! Meaning Jeremy and I were brother and sister...he was like...no...that's my g/f! She was like..OMG!I'm so sorry! It was so hallarious...u'd have to be there to understand it! I just love his family! There so wild and fun! Then Jeremy's mom was talking to her one friend...she was like..."God...he must think that ur a M.I.L.F! And me and Jeremy looked at his mom...and was like...."God mom..." She was like..what? Jeremy was like...ahhhh...mom....M.I.L.F.! She was like...looking at him with a serious grin on her face and was like....u know what M.I.L.F. is??? He was like...I've known ever since I was like...12 mom! She about died! So...to make a long story short...that was the best night I've had in awhile! But...defintially...the cuddleing w/Jeremy was deffintly the best part of the whole evening!!!! Ight..I'm outta hurr! **Jeremy...I love you baby! Don't u ever, ever forget that!** ~*~Mandy~*~ Current Mood: cheerful (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 11th, 2005
1:34 am	Jeremy...... Hey...I'm writing in hurr b/c first of all...I'm board as all hell...and yeah...that's pretty much it! Jeremy and I hung out today! It was very interesting! We hung out with his friend Chris...go into an accident...ummm...well...actually...it was the dip shit in front of us yeah...it was totally his fault! F'n douche bag! Sorry baby... Umm...we went to pick up some of Chris's friends...and we drove over by Jeremy's then went to drop off the gurlz back to their house...which is like.....45 minz away! Oh yeah...we also went to McDonald's...fun fun! I was complaing to Jeremy about how my legs are fat...but yet...I was eating French Fries!! He was laughing at me...and telling me that my legs aren't fat at all! Idk...I just feel like...he rather kinda sorta...date an other gurl...b/c she's skinnier then me! Idk...I mean...I'm not f'n cow er anything...I just feel like he's not happy even though he says he is! IDK? OH yeah...I asked my mom if I could spend the night over Jeremy's dad's house tonight...she was like..."Amanda...your already home...what the hell's the point!" I was like...soo...he lives up the street! She was like..."No!" I was like...o.k. w/e! Well....it's like.....1:34 in the f'n morning...and...I'm beat...soooo...I'm gonna skedaddle! Jeremy......I love you baby! LIKE I SAID BEFORE....I ALWAYS HAVE.....AND ALWAYS WILL! DON'T EVER FORGET THAT.....I LOVE YOU! ~*~Mandy~*~ a.k.a. Amanda..... Current Mood: hyper (Comment on this)
Friday, June 10th, 2005
11:49 am	I get to see Jeremy today! I'm so happy! I miss my cupcake! I am sitting here...waiting for him to call me so that he can pick me up and we can go shopping! Yah! I'm so happy! He won't call me yet:-( it's only 11:49! I gotta wait just a lil' longer! In the mean time...I'm pickin up the house, and doing laundry! Some life huh?? I'm so happy...skool's ova! Yeah...I get to sleep in! And stay up until w/e I wanna! But it's not like I've neva done that b4! Hopefully me and Jeremy can hang-out this weekend! He says that he has to work tomorrow at like...5:30! I don't wanna let him go today! He's not leaving...a huh...nope...I'm not gonna let him...I'll chase him down the road! LOL! I am gonna go....I love you Jeremy! I really, really do! Peace-Out! ~*~Mandy~*~ Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 9th, 2005
8:40 pm	Poems for my Cupcake! My Heart My love is deep down in my heart And when we're away from eachother it gets torn apart! You see the side of me that no one else sees Because you see the nice side of me When I'm down You cheer me up When I cry you make it go away So don't you get it? I'm a great person cause of you When I look When I look at you I feel the love that we share I see the care When I look at you Nothing that you do Can make me blue When I look at you You make my heart melt I can't say how good that felt To know that you care When I look at you My eyes light up There's some big smile on my face When I look at you When I think about you A smile comes to my face When I look at you I love you Cupcake...DON'T EVER EVER FORGET THAT... Current Mood: grateful (Comment on this)
8:16 pm	I'm so happy! I'm so happy! I finally have a boyfriend! I love him so much. Actually, I never really did stop loving him. We broke-up back in the end of August last year! I missed him immeditally. I missed him so much like I said before. I knew that right after I broke up with him...I'd made one of the biggest mistakes of my life so far! I cried for hours...I was so sad...until now! I feel like I'm the queen of the world!!! I love my cupcake!<<Lol Jeremy!!! I love you so much! I wrote you these poems don't laugh!: Your love Your love is like a natural spring How could I go on without you? Is it really true love Or just mere fling? You make me feel so good and rich; I don't know which!! You are one of the most precious things in my life, And I'll always dream of the day that you call me your wife!! You are the one who makes my tender heart beat, You fulfill my life, And you make my life complete My Heart My love is deep down in my heart And when we're away from eachother it gets torn apart! You see the side of me that no one else sees Because you see the nice side of me When I'm down You cheer me up When I cry you make it go away So don't you get it? I'm a great person cause of you I toldcha that I'm very emotional! I love you...and don't ever change the way you are...b/c I love you just the way that you are! I love you...cupcake! Current Mood: I love Jeremy! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 23rd, 2005
6:00 pm	Well...my brother's moved into my house....I hate it...I hate him! I know that "hate" is a very strong word...but...would you like to turn your whole life upside down for somebody! Some ppl would...but....I wouldn't! He's never been a brother to me. It's not really my fault that he is the way he is! Here....I'll write a lil' bout him! I sent this msg...to one of my really good friend/family member! do u wanna know what really, really sucks???? Acting like a mom to you BIG brother! I am suppost to be able to look up to him...but...I can't! I know that your thinking..."Amanda....he's not going to live there forever!" But...it feels like it! Oh well...I guess that it could be worse. I guess that...picking up after him, and also...closing the blinds...and...letting out the dog...when he's just sitting on his butt right there by the door, watching me do these things! GRRR......I hate it! It's like he's blind...and...he's like a little baby! You have to tell him to do stuff...and...grrr...it totally makes me ticked off! Oh well...nobody ever listens to me....I'm so stressed out! My skins all broke out! I cannot consentrate! Please don't tell my mom about this message, she won't understand b/c...I always put on this fake face around everybody..acting like I'm happy that he's here!!! But I'm not! I'm not at all happy...everybody at school is always asking me what's wrong with me...I tell them nothing! Even Chef's noticed a notice in me! What am I gonna do? Let me know what I should do! I don't think that I'm being very selfish...what do you think? Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)